Joyful indiscretions and furious recall. We remember what it was like to be young. Puff. Puff. Sneaking cigarettes behind the school yard or eating candy in church. It felt so good because it was so wrong. And then we grew up and we fell in love with ideas as well as people. We had our hearts broken. It became hard to stand still yet impossible to imagine an alternative. What would it have been like if we had taken more chances? When did it start feeling like we were drowning in current circumstances?
There is always another way out. There is always love. We don't have to let the past dictate the future. It isn't about what we were but what we have yet to become. Break out of the cycles that lead to the same brick walls. Try harder. Fight harder. Don't be afraid to feel sad and then shake off that sadness. It's all still ahead of you. It's all still out here, waiting for you, lying like a lurking, lumbering beast. Don't be afraid. Let it consume you and tear you apart. What comes out of the bloody mess of loose skin and mangled bones is a better version of yourself. Stronger, scarier and way more deadly.
Sidenote: How great was it to see San Junipero win an Emmy last night ! It deserves all the accolades in the world.